havent been here for a while, figure ill post here since noone looks here.

im pretty sure im just an all around bad person. i wish i could fastforward to 10years from now when im more mature, and dont have to deal with people. i mean ill have a job, maybe ill have a husband..maybe some kids. who needs anything else. i just wish i could forget about everything, focus on school. i dont know. none of this matters anyway..who cares about being 18? its pointless, i could care less. highschool wasnt important, college isnt important..besides the work. so im going to forget about everything, and do the work. what i want to do more than anything is surround myself with work, have school all day then a job. no social life. i want that so bad. then i have an excuse. i need to find a job, and i need to do well in school, and i need to forget about other people.. because im a bad person, and obviously having friends isnt my thing. why do i bother.

uh oh..i htink im switching to live journal...

maybe ill do both. but i ahve a nice set up there now.. check it

http://www.livejournal.com/users/ascoldasyou/

so..i havent written about saturday yet. i probably should, because it was a really good day.

i hate having really good days cause i compare evey other day to them, and replay them in my head until i get depressed about them being over. and then get overly excited about th next "good day" and then get depressed when every other day sucks. does that make sense? anyways...

on sat. mitch, seth (from runner-up..check them out), and i drove to cleveland to see fall out boy. it takes 2 hrs to get to cleveland, but somehow we managed to take 3 1/2 hrs. we got super lost. we got there at 3, fall out boy wasnt even there yet. so we went and had burritos.. actualyl i had a quesadilla. it was ok. too cheesy. then i went to this store to see if they had paul frank. THEY DID. i got an awesome scurvy wallet. as if i dont have enough p/f wallets. so then fob came and we helped unload and listened to them check and then the show started and fob could only play for 30 min which sucked but they still played awesome. of course. ok blah blah

then after the show. (**uh oh beware..this is the part where i talk about hanging out with fob..hope i dont get called a groupie**) we went back to the damn mexican place. then pete patrick mitch seth and i went to a toy store type thing. they had voltron!! anyways. then pete gave me a paul frank belt <3. then pete drew all over my arm. jerk. then pete crossed out every single band on my list of cds to buy, and wrote in cds i SHOULD buy. then patrick sang mcs. and showed us his "moves" as in his signature moves on stage. then we drove an hour out of the way to go to a really crazy hour. it had a stripper pole and everything. and beebee guns. scary. then we went home as soon as we got there.

i had a lot of fun. but now im back home and it sucks here. cant wait for another show.. or college..or soemthign to happen in my life.